The inspiration for this post is David Kelly of the eLearning Guild and his blog post, Three Unexpected Reasons to Submit a Speaking Proposal.
It made me mutter aloud to myself as I was reading it. You see, I recently submitted my very first speaking proposal.
“Mutter, mutter, mutter. Wait, what did I just say to myself?” Yep, that’s how my brain works.
“Yes brain, you’re right. Even if I don’t get accepted, I know that I’m worthy of speaking at a conference.”
Whoa. If I think I’m worthy to speak at a conference, then it becomes true.
I’m not going to lie. The whole process was HARD.
Picture me in front of my laptop at home. My husband is pacing in front of the TV while asking “how does that sentence apply to what people will learn, blah blah blah.” I’m sitting there, and my mind goes blank.
I tearfully proclaim to my husband, “But I have nothing to say! What am I going to talk about?” Anyone who’s been around me for longer than 2 minutes knows how much hooey that is…
Jimmy and I took the leap of faith together. He grabbed my finger, and together we clicked Submit. And it was just over. For a minute, I was disappointed. And then…
…and then my brain yelled “SHE IS WORTHY“.
And I finally believed it.
It’s a leap of faith. Even if I don’t get accepted, I know I tried. I know that my thoughts mean something.