I had another doctor’s appointment today. This time it was with my primary care physician. I really like her, and she’s loving my attitude towards Lumpy. One of the tests was an EKG, and apparently it wasn’t perfect. Because my dad has a history of heart disease, now I have to meet with a Cardiologist.

I have to say, I just want my life back. And by that I mean a life without doctor appointments every 2 or 3 days. I just want Lumpy gone so I can move forward.

I see the path forward, and I’m so anxious to start down it, but it is as if I’m mired in muck that is growing from my ankles to my knees to my thighs.

Today is Tuesday and it’s already after 4PM. I just need to get through the rest of today and then I can start tomorrow new and fresh.

I’m tossing around how much longer I can work. I love coming into work and the distraction it gives me from Lumpy, but I’m so distracted when I’m here. But thinking about it, work is a good thing. It gives me something to focus on, a reason to shower each morning and somewhere to go.  Besides, I really like my co-workers…we laugh.

And laughter makes me happy which is a good thing. So as my first cancer post said, Laugh with me. Please.